jiwa kacau!!

shoot! i can't sleep! wait. am i writing a blog right now? whoa! this the first time aku tulis blog in this kind of situation. xpernah2 aku buat dulu. haha. 

it's already past 2 in the morning. why can't i sleep? huhh. 

guess there are lots of stuff in my mind kot. 

xleh tdo turun bwh bukak laptop. 

igt nk berfacebooking je. 

alih2 tulis blog jugak. 

aduiyaii. ahh. 

dari aku dok menaip ni layan lagu best gak neh. 

k la ye. the fingers suddenly felt so numb. 

*alasan xnak menaip* 

haha. till then,

 peace! :)

a girl's game....or not!!!

hey girls! what sport did you played back in your high school? basketball? hockey? well, i bet a lot of the girls will answer netball right? it is common for girls playing netball. very very common. but, what if the common becomes not really common anymore? i mean, have you ever heard of male netball team? NEVER, right? Well, not anymore!! surprise!! There are male netball teams okay! Unbelievable isn’t it? I can’t believe it either at the first place. Not until I met them and even better played netball with them. At first I felt so weird playing netball which is a girls’ game with men but at last I can fit in after twice played with them. Believe it or not they are really good. Much better than some girls I supposed. *much better than me also* and urghh they are absolutely gay!! Hey, real men never play female’s sport okay! It will scratch their big ego of course if they ever play our sport, I guess. Haha. But, they never had seen like a ‘bapok’ if you meet them. They are just like normal guys. Handsome-handsome okay! I feel it’s such a waste of them to be a “homo”. To be honest, they have a great package I must say. A really great package for a boyfriend material. They have good looks and great jobs. Oh, and also great bodies! *wink wink* But why oh why they have to be gay? It’s really such a waste. Don’t you think so too? *sigh* well, that’s it for now. *peace*

*What I write here is pure truth. Or you can also call it as ugly truth. haha* 

road to an instant happiness..weee~

what do you need when you are down? or in distress? or even in the kingdom of boredom? i had found my perfect solution. a getaway with the perfect friends! maybe it was not a really getaway but i did have so much fun with them. well, it doesn't matter where you hang out. what the matter most is with who you are hanging out! then, poof! it will be awesome! believe me! :)

it's our first step to our instant happiness. we were so afraid of forgotten where we parked the car. actually that's the pure reason why my dear friend took this pix. haha.

 a picture of a washroom? the reason is it was definitely our first stop!! well, everyone do have needs aren't they? and we were really really in need of a washroom at that moment. aren't we girls? ;)

it's makan time at the Jetty!! love the place but not really the food. at least my food was not really sucks but my friends' were. haha. poor them. and i do love my ordered beverage. it was awesome!! the name is k-lime. it's just like a drink in Sabah named kitchai ping. it was just the same drink actually despite the name. *oh, i missed KK!! maybe not much but still i missed it. ;p* 

 

                    

the three of us at Delicious. oh, these two and the one in the upper pic are the bestest friends to hang out with! *when will be our next "road trip" girls?* :))

 

oh, we really can't afford to buy the stuff with the brand behind our back but we definitely will one day. we are really looking forward to that big day. seriously. *siap la ko Coach..kami akan borong abes2an..hahahaha*

finally, the four of us!! i really had a great time girls. maybe we won't really have free time like this anymore afterwards. especially after all of us get the jobs and move on with our dear life. but, i do hope that there will be the next time. really wish that actually. love all of you ppl!! :)) *peace*

my-feel-good-war

“hey, what are u doing?”, asked my not-so-little-brother-anymore when he suddenly barged into my room and sat beside me on my comfy yellow+green bed. Well, usually I will scream and shout at him if he ever done that before. I was so concentrated facing my 3 years old notebook. The notebook which is a present from my sister. *and it’s just an Acer* once again my brother asked me. “hey, what are you doing?” and I just said “huh? nothing. Just playing some online games.” (without even trying to look at my brother)  and I heard he said, “boringnye. Baik maen PSP.” But I just ignored him. Maybe because I’m used to listen he brags about how exciting and thrilling his PSP games to me and his friends and even to our parents. So, the best way is I just have to ignore him. Haha. My sudden hobby *online gaming*made my parents especially my mom wonder what had happen to me. I suddenly became an internet freak. Actually I am so-not-into online gaming (or I should precise it as facebook-gaming) before. But not all of them ok. ;) you know what, at first, when I started to open a facebook account, I thought I just used it to  connect me to my friends. Sharing photos, gossiping, or even sharing my thoughts with them. There are a few games that been promoted to me from my friends. (Mafia wars, farm town, barn buddy, etc. etc.) but I seem just not interested in playing them. *I am totally a game-hater* I even make fun one of my friend who seems disappeared into the online-game. I said to her, “didn’t u get bored doing the same stuff from the game?” and she just ignored me. (totally the way I ignored my brother when I stuck in front of my notebook. ;p) *to be continued*peace* =)

|ambition-less|

the truth is.....i never wanted to be a teacher. that's not exactly my ambition. i still remember when i was in primary school and the teachers kept asking their students what they wanna be when they are grow up. and dgn penuh jujur dan ikhlas i always said that i wanted to be a lawyer or a doctor or even an astronaut. bile difikir balik, how naive i was back then. that was before i knew all of the jobs not exactly so easy to be achieved. dgn aku yg memang malas nk belajar, it became even harder to achieve. oh. lupa. i was an excellent student back in primary school. maybe that was why i had a various of superb ambitions (for me la kan) haha. but after i was in high school, my ambitions totally changed. i didn't want to be a lawyer/doctor/astronaut anymore. (maybe because i know how hard i have to study to become one) so, in high school, i was actually ambition-less. i really didn't know what i should be for the next 10 years. that's why when my mother asked me to take the teaching program, i was like....ermmm...okay...ikut mami lah...i didn't even think about my passion at all. and obviously i can't even teach students with this attitude. i still remember when one of my course-mate mengutuk me from my back with her friends. she said, "korg tgk la. mcm ni ke nak ajar student?perangai entah hape2. selalu ponteng kelas. tudung pon kejap pakai kejap tak. hishh..kalo aku la..tak nak ade cikgu cam die ajar aku." well, i know i am not an angel. i'm just a human being with a lots and lots of flaws. but there's no need to kutuk me that way. oh, i'm not going to talk bout her. *kalo ckp pasal bdk neh, 24 pages pon xsudah2* so, the thing is i am actually not an ambitious person. if i do not be a teacher, i don't know what the exact job i should do. i guess, i'll just go-with-the-flow jelahh...huhuhu..till then, peace everyone..:)

p/s: this was written after my interview for teaching posting which it went not-so-well because i was wayyy not ready for the interview. i only answer, sorry tuan, i'm not sure lah...hahaha...*i wonder the interviewers tu tension x ngan my answers* ;p 

MU vs LIVERPOOL

the truth is i am a big fan of Manchester United since i was 12years old. and semua org tau yg MU and Liverpool were enemies for soo long. but weirdly i didn't hate Liverpool at all. (okay fine, maybe just a bit) tp mmg susah nk jumpe la kan fan MU xbenci Liverpool and also mmg payah nk jumpe gak fan Liverpool yg xbenci MU. the question here is why should we curse each other disebabkan MU n Liverpool neh?? i used to know a person who hates MU so much sampaikan i can't even talk about bola dgn die. (obviously because i'm one of the MU fan and he's on Liv's side) and  it's getting worst bila ade game MU lwn Liverpool. it's such a torture to me to hear all of the curses from him about MU team. hey, i am a BIG fan okay. why can't he just respect that every person dlm dunia ni ade kesukaan masing2? why can't he just accept that? but i know not all of the Liverpool's fan are like that. contoh paling simple is my bestest friend. she's also one of Liverpool's fan but still we can be best friends. haha. of course la mase tgk bola kitorg akan support team masing2 but we respect each other la kan. she and i will always be the enemies for 90minutes but that's it. after that jdk best friend balik la. no need la nk kutuk2 what so ever ni. sometimes jdk kesian plak dkt fans yg die hard yg asek dok kutuk2 team lwn. doesn't matter la fans of which team. (fan MU pon ade gak yg melampau kutuk team laen) actually, it doesn't give them any benefit pon with all of the kutuks-mengutuks neh. buat org laen panas dalam je. so, the conclusion is.....kalo nk minat tu boleh tp berpada-pada la. jgn buat org lain sakit ati ngn all of our statements. oh, by the way, i wanna apologize for all of the statement i've made yg maybe ade yg buat korg xpuas ati or sakit ati. and maybe aku penah kutuk team lain esp Liverpool, so, i'm sorry okay. i'm just a human who always made so many mistakes in this life. peace. *kenyit2*

p/s: i wrote this after the game which MU kalah 2-0 to Liverpool...:(

the first trial

    

oh, i wonder why i took this picture at the first place. is it because of the title? or is it because it's the only book i can find in the library? hurmm...it really makes me wonder. hahahaha.