|ambition-less|

the truth is.....i never wanted to be a teacher. that's not exactly my ambition. i still remember when i was in primary school and the teachers kept asking their students what they wanna be when they are grow up. and dgn penuh jujur dan ikhlas i always said that i wanted to be a lawyer or a doctor or even an astronaut. bile difikir balik, how naive i was back then. that was before i knew all of the jobs not exactly so easy to be achieved. dgn aku yg memang malas nk belajar, it became even harder to achieve. oh. lupa. i was an excellent student back in primary school. maybe that was why i had a various of superb ambitions (for me la kan) haha. but after i was in high school, my ambitions totally changed. i didn't want to be a lawyer/doctor/astronaut anymore. (maybe because i know how hard i have to study to become one) so, in high school, i was actually ambition-less. i really didn't know what i should be for the next 10 years. that's why when my mother asked me to take the teaching program, i was like....ermmm...okay...ikut mami lah...i didn't even think about my passion at all. and obviously i can't even teach students with this attitude. i still remember when one of my course-mate mengutuk me from my back with her friends. she said, "korg tgk la. mcm ni ke nak ajar student?perangai entah hape2. selalu ponteng kelas. tudung pon kejap pakai kejap tak. hishh..kalo aku la..tak nak ade cikgu cam die ajar aku." well, i know i am not an angel. i'm just a human being with a lots and lots of flaws. but there's no need to kutuk me that way. oh, i'm not going to talk bout her. *kalo ckp pasal bdk neh, 24 pages pon xsudah2* so, the thing is i am actually not an ambitious person. if i do not be a teacher, i don't know what the exact job i should do. i guess, i'll just go-with-the-flow jelahh...huhuhu..till then, peace everyone..:)

p/s: this was written after my interview for teaching posting which it went not-so-well because i was wayyy not ready for the interview. i only answer, sorry tuan, i'm not sure lah...hahaha...*i wonder the interviewers tu tension x ngan my answers* ;p