|ambition-less|

the truth is.....i never wanted to be a teacher. that's not exactly my ambition. i still remember when i was in primary school and the teachers kept asking their students what they wanna be when they are grow up. and dgn penuh jujur dan ikhlas i always said that i wanted to be a lawyer or a doctor or even an astronaut. bile difikir balik, how naive i was back then. that was before i knew all of the jobs not exactly so easy to be achieved. dgn aku yg memang malas nk belajar, it became even harder to achieve. oh. lupa. i was an excellent student back in primary school. maybe that was why i had a various of superb ambitions (for me la kan) haha. but after i was in high school, my ambitions totally changed. i didn't want to be a lawyer/doctor/astronaut anymore. (maybe because i know how hard i have to study to become one) so, in high school, i was actually ambition-less. i really didn't know what i should be for the next 10 years. that's why when my mother asked me to take the teaching program, i was like....ermmm...okay...ikut mami lah...i didn't even think about my passion at all. and obviously i can't even teach students with this attitude. i still remember when one of my course-mate mengutuk me from my back with her friends. she said, "korg tgk la. mcm ni ke nak ajar student?perangai entah hape2. selalu ponteng kelas. tudung pon kejap pakai kejap tak. hishh..kalo aku la..tak nak ade cikgu cam die ajar aku." well, i know i am not an angel. i'm just a human being with a lots and lots of flaws. but there's no need to kutuk me that way. oh, i'm not going to talk bout her. *kalo ckp pasal bdk neh, 24 pages pon xsudah2* so, the thing is i am actually not an ambitious person. if i do not be a teacher, i don't know what the exact job i should do. i guess, i'll just go-with-the-flow jelahh...huhuhu..till then, peace everyone..:)

p/s: this was written after my interview for teaching posting which it went not-so-well because i was wayyy not ready for the interview. i only answer, sorry tuan, i'm not sure lah...hahaha...*i wonder the interviewers tu tension x ngan my answers* ;p 

MU vs LIVERPOOL

the truth is i am a big fan of Manchester United since i was 12years old. and semua org tau yg MU and Liverpool were enemies for soo long. but weirdly i didn't hate Liverpool at all. (okay fine, maybe just a bit) tp mmg susah nk jumpe la kan fan MU xbenci Liverpool and also mmg payah nk jumpe gak fan Liverpool yg xbenci MU. the question here is why should we curse each other disebabkan MU n Liverpool neh?? i used to know a person who hates MU so much sampaikan i can't even talk about bola dgn die. (obviously because i'm one of the MU fan and he's on Liv's side) and  it's getting worst bila ade game MU lwn Liverpool. it's such a torture to me to hear all of the curses from him about MU team. hey, i am a BIG fan okay. why can't he just respect that every person dlm dunia ni ade kesukaan masing2? why can't he just accept that? but i know not all of the Liverpool's fan are like that. contoh paling simple is my bestest friend. she's also one of Liverpool's fan but still we can be best friends. haha. of course la mase tgk bola kitorg akan support team masing2 but we respect each other la kan. she and i will always be the enemies for 90minutes but that's it. after that jdk best friend balik la. no need la nk kutuk2 what so ever ni. sometimes jdk kesian plak dkt fans yg die hard yg asek dok kutuk2 team lwn. doesn't matter la fans of which team. (fan MU pon ade gak yg melampau kutuk team laen) actually, it doesn't give them any benefit pon with all of the kutuks-mengutuks neh. buat org laen panas dalam je. so, the conclusion is.....kalo nk minat tu boleh tp berpada-pada la. jgn buat org lain sakit ati ngn all of our statements. oh, by the way, i wanna apologize for all of the statement i've made yg maybe ade yg buat korg xpuas ati or sakit ati. and maybe aku penah kutuk team lain esp Liverpool, so, i'm sorry okay. i'm just a human who always made so many mistakes in this life. peace. *kenyit2*

p/s: i wrote this after the game which MU kalah 2-0 to Liverpool...:(

the first trial

    

oh, i wonder why i took this picture at the first place. is it because of the title? or is it because it's the only book i can find in the library? hurmm...it really makes me wonder. hahahaha.