what past is past. really??

why must everyone wanted something that they could not possibly get? it applies to me at least. i wanted this and that but i just could not reach any of them. i want it but it doesn't mean "it" wants me as well. and the one that i do not want? well, it came to me. whether i like it or not. and all that i can do is just accepting. i guess i have to stand up for myself. but guess what? i didn't! it really pissed me off of my ownself. well, that was the thing i should have done for a very long time ago. and now, all that i can do is regret! hate to say that word but yes, i am certainly regretting all of my actions in the past. well, what can i do now? what past is past right? ughh.

m.o.t.i.v.a.t.i.o.n

i lead a very boring life. went to school in the morning. went back home at two. doing nothing for seventeen hours and keep repeating the same routine over and over again. it's just so damn bored. i am getting more bored and gaining more fat too. urghh. just too malas to work out. but i need to. have to in fact. hate to see all those extra kgs i have right now. no motivation to start actually. *sigh~* need motivation quick. quick. quick. really quick. 

messy messy messy

it's hot. scorching hot. and my desk is messed. with the books. papers. pens. more books. more papers. more pens. waiting for the time. the exact time. 1355 hours. and it feels like hours. exhausted. talk. teach. talk. teach. exhausted again. need water. drink it in a gulp. need it more. more. more. and more. 

oh, it's time. 1355 hours. it's a hi and a bye.

*peace*

never been to malacca. haha. pathetic me. but at last aku jejak jgk kaki kat sane. at last! :D so here are some piccas i wanna share. wee~

here i am standing on dataran pahlawan. the first place i went after melaka sentral of course. haha. dah naik bas nak turun kat mane lg kan? ;p

the night view of sungai melaka. me, kiyai, felicia and alvin had such good time that night. pusing2 melaka naik kereta. syokk wooo~ 

neh felicia n her brother, Alvin. sooo damn peramah. met them for the first time felt like i've been hang out with them for years. thanks guys! really looking forward to meet u guys again. :D

the Famous Famosa. i dont know why i think this is the best picture i've taken so far. huhu. 

went to the exhibition of medieval instruments of punishment. not so scary though. biase2 je~

the view from menara taming sari. so nice from up there. but there's not so much to look at actually. huhu. at night we went for ikan bakar. delicious la jugak. ni baru banda hilir round neh. area ayer keroh blom lg. looking forward to go there once again! hehe.

*peace*

*he-star*

look,

look,

look,

him,

him,

and him,

but the only thing

that i saw is

the only star 

on the sky

wishing me

good night

and

good bye.

he is my lucky star. always.

*peace*

already gone? am i?

Remember all the things we wanted

Now all our memories, they're haunted

We were always meant to say goodbye

Even without fists held high, yeah

Never would have worked out right, yeah

We were never meant for do or die

I didn't want us to burn out

I didn't come here to hurt you now

I can't stop

I want you to know

That it doesn't matter

Where we take this road

Someone's gotta go

And i want you to know

You couldn't have loved me better

But i want you to move on

So i'm already gone

Looking at you makes it harder

But i know that you'll find another

That doesn't always make you wanna cry

Started with a perfect kiss

Then we could feel the poison set in

Perfect couldn't keep this love alive

You know that i love you so

I love you enough to let you go

I want you to know

That it doesn't matter

Where we take this road

Someone's gotta go

And i want you to know

You couldn't have loved me better

But i want you to move on

So i'm already gone

Remember all the things we wanted

Now all our memories, they're haunted

We were always meant to say goodbye

:: yup. we were always meant to say goodbye. :( ::

p/s: i am maybe already gone but i love you still. *sigh*

*peace*

2010? dh masuk ke? haha

is it really on 2nd of january today? huhh? xsedar pon dh masuk 2010. haha. sengal tol. anyway happy new year!! *blom lmbt lg kan?;p* so, kalo dh new year confirm la ade new resolution kan? what's mine? eh, ade ke? i think i have to think la then. haha. but i think my resolution will always be the same la kot since emm... three years back? whoa!! 3 years xtercapai2 jgk? kes berat dah aku neh. this year have to chaiyok2 kah? adoiyai. harus dan wajib. if not, ape susah just change la my resolution tu next year. haha. *peace*